Updated: Jul 30, 2022
How it go! I know it's been a minute but I don't want to be on here posting a bunch of randomness. It's my desire to post when I'm being divinely led, ya know? I honestly believe what I say will have more meaning if I sit with the thought and truly understand what it means. But I digress cause I'm here today!
So, today while taking my shower my mind went back to a message I sent to my mother maybe a year and a half ago.
I couldn't for the life of me remember what I said in the message but it was heavy on my mind. I made a mental note to check once I got out the shower and continued singing my new favorite song [Beres Hammond ft Wickerman - Mi Deyah Again]. Lolol. But anyhow got out the shower and went on to do other things. Ate my Sunday dinner and was now chilling watching Youtube. I swear to you felt like the thought slammed me in my head, "Go find the message." Lolol. So, I went to my mother's chat. Scrolling, scrolling and BAM!! I FOUND IT!!
Bear in mind this was during the time when I was coming out of my "struggle" but still "struggling". Now, I had been sick maybe a day or two at this point. I ate something and it didn't agree with me. At. All. I had a severe headache and stomachache; and I felt nauseous as ever!! I couldn't even eat. It was 1:45 am on July 3rd, 2020; I couldn't get to sleep this night and I really feared the worst. So, I just wanted to share it with someone and the only person that came to mind was my mudda.
Here's what I messaged:
"At this time I'm still awake, stomach still hurts but it subsided alot and so did my headache. Laying down trying to force myself to go sleep, I saw Matthew 9:29 then I saw Matthew 9:28 pop up in my head. It was clear as day so I searched for the scripture and read it.
28. And when he was come into the house, the blind men came to him: and Jesus saith unto them, Believe ye that I am able to do this? They said unto him, Yea, Lord.
29. Then touched he their eyes, saying, According to your faith be it unto you."
When I read that, I was like Okay God!! I see you God!! That sparked a fire of thankfulness in me. I sat and thought about everything I've been through; All that I've endured from that moment to now. I used to pray and beg God to heal my mind and my heart. Asking repeatedly to please renew my spirit; make me a better person; make me whole again. The biggest thing I asked for was peace!! And I can honestly say, HE DID THAT!! All I had to do was hold up my end of the bargain.
So, basically the premise of this post is to encourage you to believe! Listen, I was down and out. Didn't know my left from my right. I was literally at my lowest point in life. But I'm proud to say that I am no where near the place I was in in 2020. I've grown and blossomed into my best self. My only desire is to continually grow and evolve into a better person every time. And in this moment I am reminded that my faith is what has brought me to this level of enlightenment. My faith has brought me the peace I longed for!
Now, my question to you; Do you believe God is able to do the thing you require of him?
Catch yal in the next post!